Quitting. Please don't delete.

Hello.

I just wanted to let everyone know that I have decided to quit this forum. I have been personally bullied and attacked on here and I'm not going to get into the details because I have far more class than that, but I just wanted to share with you why I won't be on here anymore. I have definitely been hurt by a lot of people here, including staff members, and realized that some people never change. This hurts me deeply because I just achieved some wonderful things on here and now they're being ripped away. What I thought was a bad situation turned alright by working out some issues, turned worse when I discovered I was stillll being talked about. There aren't enough words to describe how torn apart I'm being inside, but I know in my heart of hearts that there's a reason this all happened. I was becoming too addicted to the idea of forums once again and putting other more important things in my life on hold for it. And what do I have to show for it? Nothing. Actually, I take that back. I have this to show for it. At the end of the day, I'm going to walk out of here better than the others (sorry to all of you lovely members who have made me feel so welcome, I am not referring to you at all!!!) because I'll actually be putting my LIFE first. Not a stupid site that's gonna shut down in a few months probably because we're all getting too old. I'm going to college for goodness sake. It's time to grow up, and this was just the wakeup call I needed. So to all of you that made my life a living you-know-what, thank you from the bottom of my heart. Because you made me that much stronger.


And to those people: Don't ever ask for forgiveness again. Don't ever say you're my friend because you never were. I thought this was clear to me years ago and I welcomed you back into my life as a kind person and obviously I made the wrong choice. I feel like such a fool for thinking things could be different this time, but I guess I always believe what I want to believe out of the goodness of my heart. Aside from that person, this applies to all of you (that are within this group): before accusing people who have been bullied of in fact, being bullied, especially on your site, maybe be a little more considerate next time. c: You've already ruined me, but at least don't do it to the next person who'll be in my shoes. Don't make this mistake again. Because I can assure you, it's a painful one, and nobody deserves to go through that. And lastly, don't be a coward and make someone else do your dirty work for you. If you're too gutless to admit you still have issues left unresolved, at least own up to it and tell me something like "I'm sorry, I just still don't understand. I'm still mad about this can we discuss that?" It's as simple as that. Don't lie and say "I'm glad we talked this out, and I don't want anything to come between our friendship!" and 12 hours later, gossip all about how you're still angry and then have that person say all you want to say but are too gutless to say yourself. Just don't do that. It's not cool.


Thank you all for listening to this, I truly do appreciate it. I'm not here to slander anyone and I really don't want anyone involved to post with a nasty message back because you know and I know it's only going to make things worse. The least you owe me is to share this. I didn't disclose any names or personal details, which is being quite generous on my part. This message isn't just to get the stress off my chest but it's also to provide support to others who are going through what I just did. I know there's lots of you here that have fallen victim to the same pain that I have and I encourage you to take a stand. You're only hurting yourself by not admitting what's been really going on. That's how it got so bad for me. If I would've just stood up for myself in the beginning, we might not be here today. So for that reason, please take my story and make yourself better because of it. I wish that so badly for you because I know exactly what you're going through. It's the worst kind of pain in the world and don't let anyone tell you what you have or have not felt or gone through. It's so unfair to let them win again. Just know that if you're going through this, I will always be here to talk. Obviously not on here LOL b/c that's kind of the point of this message, but if you want to get in touch someway to talk, please let me know. I'd love to help in any way I can by sharing my experiences with you just as much as you probably need to release the pain you've been holding in for a while. Bullying is a serious issue and it's something far more people need to be made aware of. If I can affect one person, I've done my job. But together, we can affect hundreds, thousands, millions of people. It all starts with one person. Maybe this is the start of a blessing in disguise. (:

If you don't have anything nice to say or are just here to rip me, please don't. That's all I'm asking. You know who you guys are and you know what you did, and I'm no fool, I know my part in this also. But for the sake of exiting peacefully, please respect me and how I chose not to share the things that were said to me also. I could do the same to you but I'm choosing not to because I'm so sick and tired of arguing. It's going to take us nowhere and just cause too much drama. So respect my wishes and I'll respect yours. Thank you.

BUMP:

I just wanted to alert you all that someone just pm'd me saying how thankful they were I spoke up, something they're still too afraid to do. I just wanted to give a silent shoutout to that person and say hey, you're awesome. Don't let anyone tell you that you aren't! You're so much better than the bully and I'm so glad you came to me. I will gladly help you through this! Just you coming forward to me to tell you your story made my day because it helps me know I'm not alone.

I just wanted to say this to alert everyone how real bullying is. Please do not take this lightly. Be a better you!

I know, goCards ): But don't worry, this isn't the end of me! It's just the end of an awful time on here, which is actually a good thing!(: I'm excited for this new step in my life, I hope it's a good one c:

I 100% support this post. I'm proud of you for speaking out. I don't think I know who you are but you definitely shouldn't feel attacked. 
sorry you feel that way, but I support you. good job.

Thank you so much, for that it makes me feel really good. It's so important for people to know that bullying is no lighthearted matter and they need to respect people who have gone through it rather than poking fun at them. And just because you look up to someone because of their appearance, talents, success, job, rank, anything, doesn't mean it's okay to be subordinate to them! Stand up for who you are, it'll be so much more rewarding, I guarantee it.

And Ash, thank you so much for your message! People like you give me back that faith that what I was feeling wasn't okay and that I made the right decision by handling it this way. It was really important to me not to disclose names or provide private details because no matter who's at fault, that's just tacky. And I don't want to make this post about the bully, but rather how to stand up to the bully. So I truly thank you for your kind words. <3 And yeah I don't know you that well, but hopefully we can get acquainted sometime!


EDIT:  And honestly, something as simple as joining the chatbox was a struggle for me. I would get really high anxiety because I knew as soon I'd join and all messages would be cleared, I was being talked about. And that's such a terrible feeling to have ): I know this isn't something only I go through, and if it's something you endure as well, maybe take a step back to diagnose why it is you feel that way. It might help you solve the real problem! (:

aww... i'll miss you

Aww c: I'll miss you too, Ag <333

I'll miss you nicole!

Aww, thank you so much, Hannah <3 I'll miss you as well

Well Said

Aww, thank you so much <3